So I come back after being off-line for a week and start blogging with the heavy stuff. Didn't really mean to but it was just on my mind. After reading it, it's a bit disjointed but I needed to get it all out and that's just how it came. I could go back and edit or even delete but I won't. I figured I needed to put it down, not for you all to read but more for me to remember.
I need to remember.... that this was my decision... made not in anger but more from frustration and disappointment.
I need to remember... not to follow this same pattern with my own kids. That no matter how busy life is... there is always time to say "I love you" and to give a hug.
I need to remember... that I do not have to be like my mom. I can break this chain.